This is another one of those songs that I just love!! Jesus is saying “come unto me”, and He will take you just as you are because he loves you more than you can imagine. He wants you to bring to Him your hurt, pain, sorrow, brokenness, and loneliness, and He will give you joy, peace, happiness, and love. Jesus will enrich your life more than you can imagine. But God doesn’t just want us to bring him our pain and sorrow; he wants to rejoice with us in our joy and happiness too.
Articles by Leah K.
RESCUE ME / SELAH
This is one of my favorite songs of all time (of which I have many). I can completely identify with the feeling of being so overwhelmed that it’s like your drowning. I just identify with the message of this song so much. I have found it to be true in my life experiences that when I truly give my problems to God that my burdens are lifted and much easier to work with. I just love this song because when I feel overwhelmed it’s like my soul cries out with it for God to rescue me. I don’t know how to explain it…this song is soothing to my soul because I know that my God and King will rescue me.
So, I Thought I Was Ready To Come Home
Oh, how I was ready to come home after our trip to see family. I was excited to get home and to go into supermom mode…cleaning house faster than a speeding bullet. I figured that THIS TIME I would be able to kick it into gear, and to be able to do all the things that I wanted to do without getting too overwhelmed. But it was not to be I guess. After everything…all the toys, suitcases, and anything else that was brought home made it into the house…the overwhelming / paralyzing feeling just took over. We are blessed with a family that loves to give gifts to the kids, but then where to put it all…and what about laundry…and dishes….oh, and don’t forget the house needs food in it. I guess that I just allowed myself to get bogged down with it all.
A tornado hit the military post where my husband works; so, he’s been called back to work a few days early for the clean up. So, when the girls got into everything and our living room started to look like a tornado zone I knew that my husband wouldn’t want to come home to that. You would think that knowing that would help me get my butt into gear and get to cleaning, but no it didn’t. I was feeling to overwhelmed / paralyzed by that time to be able to do anything. So, he came home, and got to cleaning. The hardest part is seeing the disappointment on his face and body. Once he got it all picked up I was able to pitch in and help some.
Sometimes I sit and wonder how it is that I became this way. I wasn’t like this in high school. I know that I’ve never been that great at keeping up with house work, but I don’t ever remember feeling so overwhelmed that I felt paralyzed. As far as I can tell this problem started when I started dealing with the sexual abuse that I went through, and I long for the days when I didn’t have this problem. But then I have to remind myself that back in the days when I didn’t have this problem I had other problems that were much worse (like sexual abuse and a suicidal mother). I know that I’m gaining some victories over this “feeling so overwhelmed that I’m paralyzed ” feeling, but I can’t help but wish that the fight was over and that I’ve won. I don’t like this fight, and the disappointment that it causes not only with-in myself, but with my husband as well. I don’t know if he realizes just what he did for me the other night when he cleaned up all the toys, and clothes off the floor from our trip. Once I could see the floor again I could feel that paralyzing feeling lifting off of me. He put me in a much better position for being able to tackle the rest of the house. If he had not helped me like that, I don’t know how long it would have taken me to snap out of it…several days too many, would be my guess.
I thank the Lord for giving me the strength to continue with this fight. It’s all too easy for me to just give in to being paralyzed by my feelings of being overwhelmed, and to sit and do nothing all day. I know that’s not God’s will for my life, and it’s not the life that I want to live. God willing, and I think that He is, I will one day win this war.
Merry Christmas
I hope everyone had a great Christmas. So far my Christmas break is going pretty good. I’ve had some stress, but I feel like I’m handling it well. Over all I am enjoying visiting family, and I wish the same for all of you. God bless, and I wish you all a safe New Year. I hope that the New Year brings healing, deliverance, peace, and joy to your life.
Joy Unspeakable
What to say about joy unspeakable…
Over the past year I have come a very long way in my healing, and I continue to grow and heal. I have had at least two great life changing experiences with God that have really changed me. One was back on October 10th, and the other was over Thanksgiving weekend. What happened is mainly between me and God right now…I’m not ready to share the details with the world. But what I do want to share that has everything to do with these two experiences is…joy unspeakable. Almost on the daily bases I feel like I’m getting a clear view of what it means for me to just live life…to live it free from the bondage of my past. It’s a glorious thing to be able to see that. And what’s even more glorious is that I can feel joy entering into my spirit every time I get a glimpse of life…my life…free from bondage. Oh, joy unspeakable!!
It’s the kind of joy that lets me know that I’m on the right path, and that all will be ok. This is God doing a work in me that I cannot do myself. The fog of abuse is so thick that most of the time people have a hard time seeing their way out of it. When I get these glimpses of my life being on the right track it’s like God’s growing joy inside my soul!!!
What I want you to know is that I’m a normal person, and I have my ups and downs. I don’t usually go around all bubbly and joyful. I still have some struggles that need to be conquered, and I just haven’t had the courage to share them with you. But what I do want you to be able to get from me sharing this with you is that it is possible to heal…to have genuine joy in your life again. I have found that the more I truly trust God to heal me the more He does, and the more joy there is returning to my life…entering and growing in my spirit, and I just praise God for it.